Tuesday, February 21, 2012

A mom?

I am going to be a mom. Not right away, because you know these things take time, but hopefully in the next year I will have at least one daughter. I'm hoping for two.

I don't have the words to describe how odd this feels. It's something I knew would happen one day, but it was always something I would get to someday, like balancing my checkbook or cleaning out the junk drawer.

I came close two years ago, but then I broke my leg and it made me question my ability to be a single parent. When it took me seven months to get out of the cast and over a year to get back to semi-normal, it just made me question myself even more. This last year was even worse, what with Mom having three joints replaced and work going crazy. I just wasn't sure that this was still something I wanted.

I have been thinking about it seriously for the last few months and yesterday I realized that not only did I desperately want to do this, but it was finally time.

In case it isn't clear, I'm going to be a foster parent with the intent to adopt, assuming the girls like me and I don't screw up this parenting thing too badly. I will be asking for a pair of sisters. I figure it's like Rat Terriers, you can't have just one. Back in the day, when I thought about having children, I always hoped for twins. This will be even better, because I won't have to change any diapers.

So, future daughters, let me warn you, I am a little crazy. I am way too attached to my dogs and books. And I do talk too much. I will probably embarrass the crap out of you and make you want to hide when I show up at school.

But I will be there. I will care about you. And I will do my best. I hope it's good enough.

6 comments:

Amrioth said...

OMG!!! YAY!! I am soo excited for you!!!!!!!!! I really hope everything works out! what age(s) are you thinking?

I Giggle said...

No younger than 9 and no older than 18.

SandraG said...

I agree with the no older than 18 part but if you get sisters, you may have a younger one who is 6 or 7. This is a fun age. Good for you for opening your heart and home to youngsters who need someone to care about them.

Brian Arnold said...

rThat is so awesome to hear! :D It's worth pointing out what SandraG said, if you get an offer and one is 9 and one is 6 or 7, I'd say just go with it.

My nephews are 5 and 8 (almost 6 and 9) and they're surprisingly autonomous. They can generally take care of their most basic needs, so I could totally see taking on the one at the somewhat younger age, if they have an older sibling in the range you've described.

So exciting!

I Giggle said...

You make a good point, Sandra, and I could definitely see myself with a child as young as 6, but no younger. I'm not a spring chicken, you know.

Cindy Hebert said...

I am soooo excited for you!!! :)))) Those two girls will be very lucky to get you for a Mom. Can't wait for this adventure for you!!